Friday, November 19, 2010

search me, O God and know my heart...

"Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me, and know my thoughts. And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting" (Psalm 139:23-24)

This is a prayer that should never be taken lightly. It is one asking God to carefully examine and search our hearts and our very intimate thoughts. To search them deeply and see if there is any offensive or wicked thing abiding there.

When you cry out to God with this prayer, you had better be prepared for His answer. You better brace yourself for what He will indeed reveal to your spirit. It is not a prayer to be offered up half-hearted. It is one to be lifted up in all sincerity and with a prepared and receptive heart.

He searches our hearts with His omniscience. His all-knowing and superior wisdom.A knowledge that has no bounds.

He examines us with His omnipotence. The all-encompassing. mighty and unmatched power of God.

He knows everything about us. Even the hidden things. The small and the big things. He knows the offensiveness and wickedness of our nature.

And He reveals it to us.

With the revelation comes heartache.  Broken hearts responding to the brokenness of our relationship with our Savior. Once the offense comes to light, it is our responsibility as a child of the King to do something about it. We have to get all-in, or stay all-out. Because the truth of the matter is, if we aren't 100% in with God, we may as well be out.

He demands our all. He wants us to surrender everything. To honor and obey Him in all things.

Matthew 6:33 tells us to 'seek ye first the kingdom of God'.

In Mark's gospel, Jesus tells the rich young ruler to rid himself of all his possessions, take up the cross and follow Him. But it was too much. He wasn't willing to get all-in, so by default he was all-out.

One thing that strikes me in this passage of scripture is that there was the distinct possibility that if the rich young ruler had said, 'Yes, Lord, I will sell all of my possessions and follow you", Jesus could have said, 'Never mind. Don't sell everything. I just wanted to know you were willing."

Just as God had stilled Abraham's hand as he held the knife over Isaac.

He was searching their hearts. Searching for surrender. Total surrender.

Searching for their acknowledgement of His Lordship.

Searching for their willingness to confess the need for a circumcision of heart.

As I am praying and embracing this prayer, I am asking God to search my heart. I am asking Him to know my heart. I am ready to acknowledge what He reveals. Ready to take captive any offensive or wicked thing and lay it at His feet. I am ready to surrender my all. My everything.

I am jumping in with both feet. Eyes wide open to the Truth. Heart ready for Him to search and shatter if necessary. Hands lifted high so He can reach down, hold me up and begin a new work.


Terry said...

I had never thought about Abraham being stopped before sacrificing Isaac and applying it to the rich young ruler's circumstances. Those were some great thoughts. Very encouraging post!

NanaNor's said...

Hi sweetie, What a powerful post! Yes, we better tread carefully as we pray for His redeeming work, purifying fire in our hearts. I often don't like what He shows me but so glad to forsake it all for Him.
xxx000, Noreen

Nana Jul said...

You are absolutely right about not taking this prayer lightly. He will do it, and your flesh will struggle like never before! It's very humbling. Lift your hands and heart with a knowing that he will hold you tightly through it.

Ps 63:8 My soul clings to you; your right hand sustains me.

Seeking Jesus with you!

Jennifer @ Getting Down With Jesus said...

I am so amazed by the fact that God knows me so fully and completely ... but He loves me anyway. I am in awe of grace.

Stacey Dawn said...

So true - "you better be prepared for His answer."

I know I haven't always been prepared for the answer He gave me.... but He does know best!

Yolanda said...

More times than not, when we pray this prayer and mean it with the depths of our souls, what He reveals isn't very pretty. Love you and My God-Yolanda

Warren Baldwin said...

I like reading about prayer, and the best things to read are the actual prayers of the Bible. They are certainly the most challenging, too. Hadn't thought about this verse in quite the detail you have given here. Very good job. WB

Nancy said...

You have caused me to do a lot of thinking. Thank you for your honest perspective.


I agree, asking God to search my heart is a dangerous prayer if I'm not willing to do what He reveals to me.

God bless you Sister Beth and have a Happy Thanksgiving Day :-)


Sonja said...

oh it is so true Beth! When we pray and ask Him to reveal anything that needs to be removed... it is a scary thing! But... that's when He begins a deeper work in our own hearts. Even my hubby used to say.. 'the next time you ask God to do whatever it takes to make us what He wants'... please tell me, so I'll be prepared! :)
We've been there, and we will be again.

I loved this, Beth.

Happy Thanksgiving to you and your precious family.