Sunday, February 13, 2011

from shattered to surrendered

"But He knoweth the way that I take;
when he hath tried me, I shall
come forth as gold"
(Job 23:10)

As I take a close look at my life, I can see where God has been working. I can feel the pain of the circumcision of heart that has been and still is occurring. But I am also well aware that as this process is at times painful, I am also blessed that along with this discomfort, I have experienced  some amazing moments of grace.

Moments of grace that God so lovingly places upon my head following those agonizing revelations of soul that aren't always easy to accept.

Sweet moments of grace that take place while I'm on my face before Him, after strong conviction of heart has compelled me to go face down at my Savior's feet.

Moments of grace that accompany the acknowledgement of my failures, my shortcomings and my frailty as I get honest with my Lord. As I strive for authenticity before my Savior, He bestows sweet grace upon me time after time.

God is revealing and exposing. He is refining and purifying. Bringing my allegiance to Him to a new level. Causing me to take a closer look at the strength of my faith. My trust. My surrender.

He is shaking me to the core in some areas and taking me to higher grounds in others.  One area that He is really holding to the fire is the area of surrender.

Do I fully understand what surrender is and what it entails? Am I really willing to surrender all? To follow Him wherever He may lead? Or am I only willing to go where I am comfortable. Or am I only willing to go as long as it isn't too far from my children and grandchildren?

Have I surrendered all? With no strings attached? Surrender isn't surrender at all if it is conditional. True surrender isn't contingent on anything or anybody. It is about following God's plan for your life regardless of where He calls you or what He calls you to do. Surrender is the gospel of Christ.

Surrender begins with repentance. Repentance of things past. Repentance of the need to control. Repentance of a lack of faith. Repentance of not putting Him first.

God has shown me that once my heart gets into a repentant state, then He is able to begin the process of building up those things that are necessary for a truly surrendered life.

Love. Trust. Faith.

The deeper my love for Him, the greater my willingness to follow Him anywhere. As my love grows deeper, my trust in Him and my faith in Him broadens accordingly. And then as these things continue to grow deep within my heart and soul, the need to surrender to Him comes bursting forth.  The desire to let God be in complete and total control of my life then becomes the cry of my heart.

As He takes me from shattered to surrendered, He is also so faithful to drop those amazing moments of grace into my life. Those moments of grace that confirm all that He is doing in my life and at the same time affirm who He is to my spirit. Those precious moments of grace where He reveals Himself to me with love and patience. Those sweet moments of grace that I begin to really see.

The gospel is unconditional surrender of all that we are and all that we have to all that He is - David Platt, Radical
Thank you, Lord, for never giving up on me. Thank you for the process of refinement that is taking place in my life. May I endure the process with joy and after I have been tried, I pray that I come forth as gold.


Nana Jul said...

Sweet surrender...1 Cor. 1:8 He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God, is faithful!
That is Amazing Grace!
Love ya and am praying!

Yolanda said...

Love to you!

mholgate said...

Great post Beth. Yesterday our Pastor touched a little on sanctification. That's what this post reminds me of. We are becoming more like Christ every day. In Jesus' own words...

"As You send Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world. For their sakes I sanctify Myself, that they themselves also may be sanctified in truth. I do not ask on behalf of these alone, but for those also who believe in me through their word." -John 17:18-20

Much love,

angelonwheels said...

Love to you sweet Beth!


Amen Sister Beth.

Permit me to share a couple of quotes I like :-)

The greatness of man's power is the measure of his surrender. It is not a question of who you are, or of what you are, but whether God controls you. ~Henrietta C Mears

God often takes a course for accomplishing His purposes directly contrary to what our narrow views would prescribe. He brings a death upon our feelings, wishes, and prospects when He is about to give us the desire of our hearts. ~John Newton

Saleslady371 said...

True, heartfelt surrender is a tough one for me, too. Your journey sounds wonderful and deep, Beth. Thanks for sharing it.


Edie said...

I have thought many times about what it means to surrender all. Like you said, it isn't contingent on my grand-babies. It isn't contingent on my dreams either. There is a sweetness in the pain that kind of surrender evokes.

I started reading Radical last week, well, when I'm not working on a blog design. ;) I haven't read much of it but looking forward to more.

Love to you!

Anonymous said...

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mommyto4blessings said...

Very encouraging!! I love you!

NanaNor's said...

Dearest Beth, Wow what a post-as I read I understood some of what you wrote about surrender because I've often failed at letting go-especially if it means moving away from daughters & grands. I'm still in the process and pray that He will find me faithful unto the end.
Thank you for this honest and truthful look at how the Lord is purifying you as you surrender.
Have a blessed week dear one. So thankful you had a special anniversary.
Hugs & much love.

Stacey Dawn said...

Praying for you...

Nancy said...

I like the way this whole thing progresses. It's a process we all need to begin and continue on to completion, to the place He is leading us.


There's no better place to be than fully surrendered to Him - but sometimes He brings us to places we never imagined - to hard places - to recognize what we are still holding back giving over to Him! I'm right there with you Beth as you wrote these words that really spoke to my heart:

"God is revealing and exposing. He is refining and purifying. Bringing my allegiance to Him to a new level. Causing me to take a closer look at the strength of my faith. My trust. My surrender."

This post is right where God has me also. It's a hard core honest look upon one's life! Thanks for digging deep to bring it forth!

Choosing JOY in this season,

D.J. Hughes said...

From shattered to surrendered. This is a powerful post, my friend. I love your heart!