Saturday, October 1, 2011

hope of Jesus

As I walked through the double doors to the lobby, I took a deep breath. I mentally prepared myself for the onslaught of emotions that assails me each time I enter this building. The instant I crossed the threshold, I met mortality. It stares you straight in the face no matter where your gaze lands.

The elderly couple sitting across from each other as they sip coffee look normal until you see the IV pole standing tall beside him. When you take a closer look you can see fatigue on their faces overshadowed by the obvious love that they have for one another. I see a young girl walking by her mother and notice the pretty scarf tied to her sweet little head that is covering the ravages of chemo.

Everywhere you look, the curse of cancer is evident. There are untold stories walking the halls of MD Anderson. Stories of disbelief and horror. Anger and fear. Strength and tenacity of spirit. There are miracles taking place around each corner and miracles in progress walking through those doors daily. 

Mothers, fathers, children. Grandparents and other loved ones. Some are just beginning their journey into this world of dreaded diagnosis and treatment and others are walking a well beaten path. 

My heart hurts and I have to be careful not to utter those familiar words... 'it's not fair'. Because I know that life isn't fair. It isn't supposed to be. God created a perfect world, but it didn't stay that way long. Sin in the Garden took care of that.  But life is certainly good. God created us in His image to worship Him and to love Him. God is good and He is faithful. We aren't promised that we will never face hardships and trials in this life, but we are promised that He will walk beside us every step of the way.

"Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed , for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you.
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"
(Isaiah 41:10)

God is with us. We can walk through the valley of the shadow of death because He Is. We can rest in the confidence that He is aware of our needs. He knows. He sees. He cares.  No detail of our life goes unnoticed by the Lord. His purpose for us stems from His unending love for us. 

So, as I walk the halls of this great hospital, I can see with the eyes of our Savior. I can see with the love that He has for each person I encounter. 

 As  I talk with Mike, a 40 year old  husband and father undergoing radiation, I can impart the love of Jesus to him. He is courageously waiting for the results of tests that will tell him where he has progressed in his treatment.  He and his wife have hope. Hope that comes from their Lord.

As we talk with a young mom in the elevator, we can encourage her with the promise of prayer for her 8-year old little boy. Tristan had surgery to remove a brain tumor and is now having blood pressure problems. Even though I sense her weariness, I also sense the determination of her spirit as she fights alongside her son for his life.

We talk with a woman who is walking this journey beside her cousin who is fighting lung cancer. She knows the hope of our Lord and it was encouraging to talk with her and exchange names for the purpose of intercessory prayer. God is so good.

I pass by a young teenage boy and his dad on their way to chemo. I can sense the despair on the dad's face of having to watch his son go through this trial of pain and uncertainty. I see a young man with a mask on to prevent germs from invading his body in the now weakened state due to his treatment.  Everywhere I look there is a story to be told and prayer to be needed. I silently pray for each person in each room I pass by.

There certainly is pain on many of the faces we pass by. Pain of the unknown outcome of the journey. Pain of watching a loved one hurt.  The pain of fear itself.  But there is also the unmistakable expression of hope etched on so many. Hope for victory over evil.  Hope for a new tomorrow. Hope for healing.  Hope that comes from an intimate relationship with a personal Savior. Hope of Jesus.

"Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed
on us, that we should be called children of God"
(1 John 3:1)

Please continue to pray for my father-in-law as we are embarked on this journey again. He will have surgery in a few weeks to remove the cancer in his pancreas and bile duct. We have been here since Wednesday night after the stent in that duct got blocked once again and had caused a bacteria to form in his bloodstream. They replaced the stent but he is still pretty sick. He is better, but we need him WELL so he can undergo the surgery to take care of this once and for all.


petrii said...

Oh sweet Beth,
I'm so sorry your family is walking this difficult road. I know from walking with my mother on her own cancer road, that it is a weary one. I pray God's peace and healing on your FIL and hope and certain joy in knowing that He is with you. I love you so, Dawn

Nancy said...

What an amazing group of stories of courage. I'm sorry to hear of your father-in-law's illness and the setback, but I know that Jesus heals and answers prayers. I'll add mine to those who are already praying. I'm hoping to hear a good report soon.

Nana's Nuggets said...

Good Morning Beth, wow~ I loved this post! and I related to the thoughts, as my sister-in-law was just diagnoised w/a very rare form of cancer! MY very BFF, has spent this last year battling double breast cancer! your scriptures was very comforting..and I will be praying for your FIL as well. May the God of Peace rule in Our Hearts Today. Blessings:)

Tammy said...

Its been awhile since I've stopped by and forgot how beautifully you share your heart. I'm sorry to hear that your family has been touched by this awful disease, yet your words spoke "hope."

Praying for you.

In His Grace~Tammy

mholgate said...

I will be praying that your father gets well so that they can continue. My heart is with you as I lift my prayers to the One who Heals.


NanaNor's said...

Dearest Sis, Sending love and prayers to you and yours today. I know that you and your man are beacons of His light there and you are bringing comfort to those who need it. Hugs to you. Noreen

Nana Jul said...


I'm so sorry you are traveling this road again. I will be praying for a quick recovery from the infection, so they can treat the cancer once and for all. You two amaze me....truly! Speading hope, reaching out to others with prayer, shining Jesus in those hallways. You know who your help is. Nothing is impossible for Him!
Love ya sister!

Stacey Dawn said...

Sending prayer and hugs for what must be so difficult... Love.

LisaShaw said...

Precious, I am praying for your Father in law right now in the Name of Jesus!!!

We were just at MD Anderson hospital here in our state yesterday after church visiting with a friend who is in stage IV of cancer that is in his bones, eating his spinal cord and his stomach. We are praying steadfastly for him too.

Your words are so true spoken Beth!!!

My love to you and your family as I stand with you in prayer!!!

T.O. Geezer said...

I pray that everything goes well with your father-in-law. I can't wait for the day I enter God's cancer free heaven! No more tears, no more pain! Hallelujah!!




Praying for your family as you embark on this journey which will lead you to touch many more lives that otherwise would not receive the HOPE of our JESUS. You are that touch! Let your light shine!

[[HUGS]] JOY, Stephanie