Even though some of the circumstances of our situation didn't change, God provided a solution. Even though the problem didn't just magically disappear, He provided peace. I thought of the song that says "God will make a way, when there seems to be no way..." God has been so good to us and I think this is the first time that I was able to lay it down - and leave it there. I put my trust in Him and didn't pick it back up again. (I'm really bad about that - I want to give it to Him, but just hold on to the edge of it....)
I know that anytime we as Christians are moving ahead with God and we are becoming more filled with His Spirit and becoming more in love with our Savior, the devil doesn't like it. He doesn't want us seeking more of God. He doesn't want us becoming more like Christ. He doesn't want us to put our hope and trust in our Lord. The devil tries so hard to 'get in our business' and defeat us. Case in point:
Every Sunday morning, my husband goes to the little country store right down the road to buy a newspaper. When he went yesterday, he left the carport door open, but the storm door was closed. Well, when he came back he opened the storm door and what do you think was sitting in the doorway, INSIDE my house!
Yes.... that is a ground rattler and it was IN MY HOUSE! My husband quickly kicked it outside and stomped his little head. Now... you may not agree with me, but I am telling you that was Satan trying to get in my house and he wound up with a crushed head! This week alone, there were 3 other little ground rattlers found by the church. Hmmmm...
I have grown in my faith this weekend. I have renewed strength. I feel restored. I have learned to really put my trust in God. I have learned that I am NOT in control. I have learned that I will survive the hard times. I have learned that if I let God just wrap His arms around me and comfort me, He will do it. If I stay faithful and don't lose heart, He will show up mightily and He will get the glory.
"Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength." Isaiah 40:28,29
"But those who wait on the LORD, shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint." Isaiah 40: 31
Praise you, Lord, for being the Creator of all things. I praise you for being a God who loves. Thank you for giving me strength in my weakness - hope in my depression - victory in my defeat. You are mighty and powerful and I love you with all I have and all that I am.