Have you ever felt discouraged, depressed and just downright defeated?
Have you ever felt like you jumped from victory to defeat in one fell swoop?
It’s so easy to be strong when things are going smooth. It’s REALLY easy to be strong when it’s someone else’s problem. We know just the right words to say. We can quote just the right scripture. We can even conjure up the perfect cliché. We can be really bold and really brave when it is someone else’s battle.
BUT, when the battle becomes ours – then it’s not quite as easy to put our faith in practice. When the rubber meets the road – the true strength of our relationship with Christ comes into focus. It’s then time to put some feet to our faith.
I should have seen it coming. I should have been a little more aware of the potential for attack. Things had been going good. Too good. I’ve been too hungry for the Word. I’ve been feeling so in tune with God. I’ve been seeking and seeking a deeper relationship with my Lord. I’ve developed a new appreciation and respect for Who God really is and Who I am in comparison.
I basically just stood by basking in the glory – enjoying His presence and sweet Spirit. I just put my guard down and let the devil blindside me. Wham! He rears his ugly head. Messin’ with me. Oh – he didn’t mess with my kids or my sweet grandbabies. I’ve prayed a hedge around them. But one area that I have neglected and haven’t given a lot of attention to is our finances. The devil delivered one strong punch and just knocked me to the ground. Pulled the rug right out from under us. For just a little while, he succeeded in making me feel depressed, discouraged and defeated.
Am I going to let him have the victory in this? Oh, no. No way. Not for one second. Instead, I cried out to God. I let him whisper to my aching heart. I went to the only place where I can lay it all down and let God pick it all up.
The foot of the Cross.
I fall to my knees.
I will be still so I can hear.
I will not run.
I will not be defeated.
I will not lose faith.
I will hold on to God’s promises in His Word.
“Deliver me, O Lord, from my enemies; in You I take shelter” (Psalm 143:9)
“Great is the Lord and greatly to be praised; And His greatness is unsearchable” (Psalm 145:3)
In the words of Matt Redman:
“Oh no, you never let go
Through the calm and through the storm.
Oh no, you never let go
In every high and every low.
Oh no, you never let go.
Lord, you never let go of me.”
God is still God. He is still on the throne. He will win this victory. He will give me the strength that I need. He will never let go of me.