Have you ever felt like the Lord had something really important to tell you, but that He was waiting until He felt like you were ready. I mean, really ready?
Deep down in the recesses of my spirit, I feel Him nudging me with the beginnings of a work He wants to do in me. A work that He wants to do through me. I sense a stirring in my inner being of Him trying to prepare me for the next step He will guide me in. A stirring that continues to build but one that isn't on the verge of errupting into the tangible yet.
I have been trying to be still lately and focus more on Him. Trying to be still so He can move. I have felt like I need some serious quiet time with Him so that He can speak. I have even wondered why He is taking so long to reveal things to me. And then tonight as I was praying, it occured to me that perhaps that is part of what He is doing in my life. Helping me to see the importance of a continual and growing relationship with Him. Helping me to see the beauty in the waiting. It seems like when I am waiting for Him to talk to me, I spend a lot more time seeking His presence. I spend a lot more time on my face before Him.
I so desire a deeper and deeper walk with Him. I long to meet with Him. I find myself hurrying through the daily mundane things so I can retreat to my study and just get with God! There's nothing quite as serene as the feeling I get when I begin to commune with Jesus. I just long to sit in His presence. I long to feel His sweet embrace. I can just bask in the glorious splendor of the Holy Spirit and allow my soul to be drenched in His love. Satiated in the knowledge that He desires to fellowship with me. Knowing that He loves to spend time with me and that He even delights in me.
I realize that when He is ready to begin a new work in my life, He will open my eyes, my ears and my heart so that I can see, receive and hear. He will most certainly reveal those hidden things when He senses that I am ready to walk in obedience of the calling. Those deep things that He has for me will come. The purpose that He has in mind for my life will come to fruition. I just have to be still and wait. Wait for His perfect timing. His perfect will.
But for now, I have a long way to go in allowing my heart to be sanctified. I have some things that the Lord and I have to deal with. Some attitudes that I have to come to terms with. Some areas of spiritual neglect that need some remodeling.
I am definitely a work in progress. And I am so thankful that God is so patient. So merciful. So gracious.
In the meantime, I will derive my strength from Him. I will spend time in His presence. Time at His feet. I will be still and I will wait.
"But those who wait on the LORD, shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles,
they shall run and not be weary,
they shall walk and not faint"