"If you enter God's presence withholding nothing, there is nothing
He won't do to make you whole"
Our willingness to be intimate and open with God, allows Him to minister to us and to heal our most personal wounds. The deep and sometimes painful wounds of our hearts.
Lately, I have really begun to see so many wounds in my heart and in my soul. Wounds that penetrate deeply. Wounds that I have allowed to remain hidden and untouched. Small hurts that over time have festered and become bigger. Some of them big gaping wounds and some of them less significant paper cuts.
I am not really sure why I have not allowed myself to face these hurts. I feel like I could have changed alot of my inerrant behavior if I had only allowed these deep seeded feelings to surface.
Perhaps I thought if I ignored them they would go away. Perhaps I thought that the wounds might only go deeper. Or maybe I had just grown comfortable with them and was unsure of life without them. Sadly, they offered me a sense of security and I was unwilling to risk letting them go.
I have a longing in my spirit to let these old hurts rise to the top so I can give God permission to come in and heal. Heal and restore.
I am at a crossroads in my spiritual growth and I know that if I am going to move forward, it is time to deal with these obstacles. Even if it is painful. Even if it is hard.
My heart is crying out for more. More intimacy with my Jesus. More knowledge of Him and more power through Him.
I am ready to be all that He intends for me to be. I know that I can only do that when I get completely honest with God. I want Him to take my hand in His and walk with me on the next step of our journey. I want Him to lovingly guide me in His perfect plan for my life.
So I stand before Him with my arms and heart wide open. Seeking complete intimacy with my Savior. Relinquishing it all to Him and falling face down in worship. Ready to give my all to Him and receive His all for me.
Withholding nothing in His presence. And truly allowing Him to anoint my head with the soothing balm that flows from His healing Hand. Covering me. Healing me. Restoring me to wholeness.
"So that they should seek the LORD, in the hope that
they might grope for Him and find Him, though He
is not far from each one of us"
Acts 17:27 (NKJV)